YouTube playing, scrolling lemmy, and playing cities skylines fixing traffic.
I feel called out.
Definitely works.
I tried TikTok once, it really felt like brianrot taking root within minutes.
Poor Brian.
It already happened 😔
Hey, I have a rambling anecdote!
I’ve always had problems with intrusive thoughts. A few years back I had a really hard breakup that I won’t go into the details of. For 6 months I had a TV on, my headphones on with a book running, and was doom scrolling every bit of social media I could when I wasn’t working. I started drinking the second I got off work and only stopped when it was time to sleep. Why? Because my intrusive thoughts got LOUD. I couldn’t function without something going on all the time.
I went through more than a book a day on audible for those 6 months. One day I forgot to charge the speaker in my shower and I had a whole ass breakdown. There was no point in my life that was silent.
Eventually I got better. It took time but I got there. Now I’m a drunk recreationally instead of because I need to be in order to function. I listen to books for pleasure instead of out of necessity. And much later I did the whole therapy thing and have tools to keep myself from going through that again.
I had a very similar life experience/journey except I did it for the better part of a decade. Eventually we have to live for ourselves instead of just trying to get by day to day.
I’m glad you’re still here, friend. I wouldn’t have made it that far. I hope you’re doing well now.
With the right combination of substances, you can make yourself blackout entirely. Can’t feel sad if you’re not conscious.
You don’t even need substances, if you just lie down for a while you’ll black out for like 8 hours
Less reliable but way cheaper than chemical blackouts
What about the other 16 hours though, huh?
Just do it two more times, duh
God I wish it were that easy to sleep on demand.
Binaural tones. Out like a light whenever you need.
I have become comfortably numb
Linkin Park singing: I have become comfortably numb
I’m out on a walk, listening to a podcast, and scrolling Lemmy…
I’m still short 2 forms of distraction, but i’m running out of senses to overstimulate!
Have a fidget spinner in your other hand, chew gum and start blowing bubbles, oh and wear a vibrating buttplug.
Oh i was already doing one of those actually
I’m here to chew buttplugs and kick gum
And I’m all out of buttplugs
Walk through a perfume/cologne shop and put a vibrating butt plug in and that ought to cover the rest.
Oh i was already doing one of those actually
In all seriousness: Identify habits you do every day that aren’t productive nor bring you genuine enjoyment, and try to cut yourself off from them. You can give yourself time in every day to be more adventurous and make changes.
I don’t know if I feel attacked or seen.
I don’t know, I keep hearing this meme but it’s the opposite for me. I think about the incredible buffet of interesting things I listen to all the time. I wish I could think multiple things at once or that I didn’t have to pause whatever I’m listening to so I can write about it.
hello it me
When I work I have at least two videos playing without sound as well as music. And somehow I do work
Imagine how much work you could do if you had 3 videos playing!
🧐
also pls rember that wen u feel scare or frigten never forget ttimes wen u feeled happy
wen day is dark alway rember happy day
Thanks jiggly puff
Helps with intrusive thoughts!
…Until you have to sleep, that is.
Eh, I’d rather go for a walk with my dog. At least he won’t be sad.
Shit I have to up my game
I’ve wanting to put more effort in using my systems. Im trying to do the pomodoro technique to pace myself and not burn myself out while enjoying my minecraft on my steamdeck. While going to drive to school and back i give myself more room to breathe and process by having some chill instrumental music.
Trying to go 2 times a week on my bike to get that frustration out, and get out from home.
I havent gone out with friends as much as of late but that rlly helped before to look forwards to the weekend.
