Thanks for posting this, Penguincoder! I hope you’re doing as well as possible. I appreciate you and wish you all the best! 💖

I wish I was channeling my inner Meatwad, lol. For me it’s more like “God has forced me to live another day and everyone is making it even more of a problem for me.”

Everything feels hopeless, I’m in too much pain and fatigue, I’m sick of my broken body and fucked up living environment. My beloved cat is still riddled with mysterious tumors I can’t afford to do anything about, which is fucked. I slipped into some stupid-ass self injurous behaviors again because I’m so overwhelmed with the hell and being useless and powerless. I just wish I could either be useful and capable, or cease to exist without hurting my poor sick cat or making some innocent person have to find a body, ya know? Bleh. (That’s the short version)

Thank you so much for commenting this! I wouldn’t have known otherwise.

Woohoo!! Go Audrey!!! You’ve got this! I’m so stoked for you!! :)

I think it’s likely someone would still buy it, especially since it’s a ThinkPad. I see people on computer nerd forums go crazy over happily buying old ThinkPads, although I think some models are more popular than others. If nothing else, it’s useful for parts!

Maybe it would be worth a try to post in a fitting community with more info about the model and stuff and ask for the opinion of people who are more knowledgeable. You could also try searching the sold listings on eBay for your model to see how well they’re selling, how often, and for how much.

I’m glad you’re around, Alyaza! I’m bummed that cohost is shutting down, too, but I’m not surprised. Your website looks good, I like it!

My week has been pretty shitty, as usual. I’m really sick of this awful, useless brain and body I’m stuck with and the horrible, unhealthy environment I’m stuck in. I wish humane euthanization was an option. But, it’s not. I don’t want some poor, innocent person to have to find a body and deal with the trauma of it; that wouldn’t be fair to them. So I’m stuck. Life is hell and I’m tired. Tired of being useless and miserable and broken. Bleh. There’s so much more I want to get out, but my poo brain won’t turn it into words.

I wish the world was better and so many undeserving people weren’t suffering. I hope things get better for everyone here who are having difficult times and I wish I was able to respond to everyone directly.

I’m so sorry you’re having such a difficult time. I wish I could fix it for you! I hope your brain eases up on you soon and things improve for you ASAP.

I feel like there’s a lot more I want to say, but my brain is a turd and I can’t find the words. I really, really feel for you and you’re not alone, although I know it doesn’t make it suck any less. You deserve better. I hope you’re doing your best to be kind and understanding to yourself as you would with a beloved friend (but goodness I know how difficult that is/easier said than done!) 💖💖💖