If you live in the states, Libby is a lifesaver. It’s an online audiobook thing for libraries. You can use your library card to check out audiobooks through the app. And if you’re unable to use Libby for some reason, I’ve heard mobilism has a lot of audiobooks for free
If you have to start a sentence with “I don’t want to be racist but…” That’s probably a thought you should keep to yourself if you don’t want people to think you’re racist